A preoccupation with the dark side of human experience.
Someone who reads this blog recently opined that it might be beneficent if I managed to get more lightness, more of a focus on the positive, into my writing. I told him I’d think about it.
In my last conversation with Gary Heidt (today’s podcast, The Logic of Empathy), I told Gary about a recent dream I had in which I understood human existence as being suffused with “endless malevolence,” the purpose of which was for consciousness to find the transmission of the divine in the midst of all that noise.
In other words, the darkness of apparent negativity exists to deepen our capacity to recognize, and follow, the light that is hidden within it, or rather, hidden within us. To learn to experience our connection to the divine under the most onerous of conditions, and so to know, really know, that the divine, which is us, can withstand anything.
My aim with all of my writing about “endless malevolence” seems to be similar: to immerse myself and the reader/listener in these dark materials in such a way that it allows for an experience of the light within them in a way that is profound and lasting.
2017, the year I turn fifty, is also the year I once predicted (in Being the One) would be the beginning of the end of civilization. For many Americans, it probably already feels like it. For them, the Trump card is indeed the Tower. We’ll see.
For me, it is time to deepen my connection to the ancestors and the transmission of that collective soul.
Time to spend time away from Faceborg, away from RI, away from movies & TV shows.
In lieu of these I will be posting more updates & participating more at this blog, and I hope also at the Kubrickon forum, that’s if anyone else is. I have altered the board settings to allow easy registration/instant access, & it only takes two or three regular posters to get things moving along again at the Overlook.
Too much cultural immersion is no doubt accentuating the focus on the negative in a way that isn’t necessarily productive. Judging by the sort of cultural entertainment we choose, we also wallow in dark stuff to distract us from our own darkness.
This maybe relates to some thoughts I received while sleeping late this morning (yes, I work stuff out while I sleep). I understood that the whole you-create-your-own reality Secret shtick was designed to direct our attention away from a much subtler, less mystical truth. As I explored in part two of Prisoner of Infinity, when we are led to believe certain things, we will act in ways that turn those things into realities. In POI, I looked at how seeding the culture with narratives about possible futures (e.g. space travel) was a way to engender belief in those possibilities and a desire to realize them.
There is a variation on this, which relates to making people believe that something already exists, and so shaping their actions that way. I think this works especially well when the imagined reality is not desirable but undesirable. Making kids believe in Santa Claus may influence their actions but not in a way to bring about the existence of Santa Claus (adults make Santa real for kids, not because they believe he exists but because they know he doesn’t). On the other hand, if people can be made to believe in the reality of something that they are afraid of, they will react in ways that, over time, will bring the imagined fear into reality.
The example on the table currently is the dreaded alt-right white supremacist movement. Other obvious examples are misogyny, homophobia, racism in general, anti-Semitism in particular. These things exist in some form, but when they are named and categorized, when people and groups of people and other beliefs or viewpoints are associated with them, they are turned into social phenomena, even imagined as movements, and over time they become real. I think this is because, the more something is resisted as an idea, the more it is obliged to come into form as a reality. What we resist grows stronger, what we suppress increases in power and urgency.
These psychological and social principals are understood well enough to be applied and so, of course, they have been. A large part of cultural engineering has to do with seeding us with fantasy-based fears that, over time, give rise to the social realities that control us.
Culture is a form of negation, a negative image of reality. It’s transfixing, spellbinding, and like an X-Ray it is full of potentially useful data. But also like an X-Ray, it takes its toll on us each time we expose ourselves to it, and it is no substitute for a direct relationship with our interior spaces. Nor does culture facilitate this relationship, so much as provide a distraction from it or an alternative to it. Our interior spaces, after all (mine at any rate), include areas of intense discomfort and distress.
2017. The Auticulture Questionnaire has been updated so as to double as a submission form for anyone who feels like they might benefit from speaking with me, on the record or possibly off, with the option of making a podcast out of it.
I may not quite know what it is, but all of this output is meant to provide a service to people. It is meant as orientation by example, to facilitate interior exploration towards finding the light of your soul’s transmission. That is the only thing that matters in this life or in the life to come–if there is to be one.
The only purpose for our being here is to uncover, nurture, develop, and deepen that connection to the light, and to thereby allow the light to penetrate the endless darkness both inside us and outside of us, in the world.
Like gold with its supreme atomic weight, the transmission is found always in the deepest, darkest, most hidden spaces within us. The treasure is temporarily lost in the deep, and this is the why of all our diving. Acclimatization to the depths.
May 2017 be a wonderfully deep and dark year for us all. May it even be the year “the black hole will arrive.”