“The work on trauma is a repetition compulsion of ceaseless mental fight. Interminable analysis, interminable writing, interminable soul-making is the only medicine—there is no antidote. The transmuting of trauma into creative affirmations, the mutual transformation of trauma and soul, is a process that like poetry ‘survives the valley of its own saying.’ To put it another way . . . and another way . . . and another way is what soul-making is all about.”
—Greg Mogenson, A Most Accursed Religion
The first draft of the piece that became Prisoner of Infinity was a little over 4,000 words. It is now (writing in 2013) over 100,000 and still growing. I didn’t intend for this to take over my life. In an email to Ty Brown, I wrote that “this current work is like being abducted—it has a life of its own and it won’t let me go—like an octopus, once you grab onto one of the tentacles.” That’s what happened: I grabbed onto what I thought was a snake but it turned out to be a limb of a much larger beast. I had two choices then, either let it go, or get a hold of the rest of the limbs so I could see the whole thing in all its slithering glory: a fully-rounded picture of the infiltrated psyche. I chose the latter path, and here we are.
Writing this book is like being a slave to a Pharaoh who won’t let me quit until I have built his Pyramid. Except this isn’t a creative process but a destructive one, so a much better metaphor would be that of gold-prospecting, something I was doing in my spare time before this work took over my life. When I first started digging I didn’t really know what I was looking for. The more I dug, the better an idea I got. Gold is deposited from higher up as waters drag the dirt and sand down the mountain, and since gold has a greater atomic weight than just about anything else, it always sinks as far down in the dirt as it can go, towards the bedrock. To get to the bedrock you have to remove regular dirt, rocks and boulders, then there’s clay, then there’s black sand, which has heavy metals in it, and amidst the black sand, there’s the gold (if you are digging in the right spots). In order to find out if you are digging in the right spot you have to get to the black sand and pan it. Your pans are like the trail of clues a detective follows to get to the body. There are other things too, like the shape and position of rocks and the color of the dirt, the smell of sulfur; but the panning is the main part.
What happened as I continued to dig, and learn from digging, was that we started to uncover the bedrock and even caught sight of the pay streak (yellow dirt, where the gold has passed through on its way to the bedrock). At that point, I became more motivated and the digging took over. I wasn’t looking for gold as yet (I knew I probably wouldn’t be able to recognize it if I saw it), but now I was looking for something concrete: bedrock. When you are uncovering bedrock you don’t want to risk a landslide so one of the things you have to do is work at it in “tiers” or stages. You uncover a little here then move higher up and dig a ledge. This way you won’t undermine the dirt above you and risk getting buried; but also, you have ledges to stand on while removing the dirt above you. It gets tricky because, as you’re shoveling dirt away, you don’t want to end up covering the bedrock below you which you’ve just uncovered. You want to get a clear idea of the shape of the bedrock so that, when you find the pay streak, you can follow it (you can also use the shape of the bedrock to help you to find the pay streak). When you’re removing dirt, you get to rocks of different shapes and sizes which are both clues to follow (river-smoothed rocks indicate the pay streak is near) and obstacles to move. Sometimes you might start to remove one rock and realize that its pinned by another; you have to disassemble the terrain in the right way, not only to reduce the work but also to make sure you don’t wind up dodging falling boulders and other heavy objects.
All of this provides a reasonably close analogy to how writing this book unfolded. At a certain point, I spotted what looked like a pay streak, and I also hit bedrock. Now I am doing the necessary work to clear away the dirt: digging, moving rocks, collecting samples, panning them and reading the fine gold, getting closer and closer to exposing the bedrock and hitting pay dirt. Just as all that glitters is not gold, not everything that looks like dirt is dirt. It’s all a learning process, and what I’m learning is how to train my eyes to see in a new way.
“A leaderless but powerful network is working to bring about radical change in the United States. Its members have broken with certain key elements of western thought and they may even have broken continuity with history. . . Broader than reform, deeper than revolution, this benign conspiracy for a new human agenda has triggered the most rapid cultural realignment in history. The great shuddering, irrevocable shift overtaking us is not a new political, religious, or philosophical system. It is a new mind—the ascendance of a startling worldview that gathers into this framework breakthrough science and insights from earliest recorded thought.”
—Marilyn Ferguson, The Aquarian Conspiracy
The original essay which this book grew uncontrollably out of, you may dimly recall, was a response to Jeffrey J. Kripal’s article “The Traumatic Secret.” It was sparked among other things by Kripal’s citing of Aldous Huxley and his “human potentialities,” “psychedelic solutions,” and “perennial philosophies.” Because of the momentum of this excavation process, I didn’t find time to investigate Huxley’s history in detail (you can’t always take the time to pan every pile of dirt); but even on the surface I found plenty to wonder about.
Huxley is most famous for two works: his technological dystopia novel, Brave New World, and The Doors of Perception, which advocates the use of hallucinogens as a means to shut down the “reducing valve” of the brain and enter into an experience of what he calls “Mind at Large.” (In passing, psychedelics might be seen as a form of chemically-induced trauma to the body.) Huxley, as Kripal points out, was one of if not the major influence on “the human potential movement” which eventually became the New Age movement. Along with organizations such as Esalen, he was responsible for introducing Eastern spirituality to the western world. Huxley belonged to a famous aristocratic family, and his brother, Sir Julian, was a member of the British Eugenics Society, a fact that has been largely stricken from the record. Sir Julian also coined the term “transhumanism”!
For all the Eastern spiritual jargon favored by these individuals and institutes, the aims they put forth (in common with those of transhumanism and the Singularity) are really indistinguishable from the aims of western occultism (and groups like Scientology): namely, the development of super powers. In the West, we tend to confuse psychism with spiritual attainment. Yet from an Eastern point of view, they are seen as at odds with one another—hence the many warnings about “siddhis.” Enlightenment is liberation from the false self—the defensive ego-self created by trauma. Psychism—which can easily be confused with “human potential”—is all about enhancing and improving the self to create a kind of “super-self.” Enlightenment is said to entail a total openness and the corresponding vulnerability: the sensitivity it brings isn’t just psychic but emotional, psychological, and physical/energetic. Psychic superpowers—including the power to leave the body (dissociate) à la remote viewing—seem like a movement in the opposite direction, towards becoming invulnerable. Which is a traumatized individual more likely to gravitate towards? What are Strieber’s tales of power but accounts of a kind of siddhi-wielding, alien-engineered übermensch whose only weapon is his mind?
Huxley took the title The Doors of Perception from Blake’s The Marriage of Heaven and Hell, which is presumably why Kripal refers to Huxley’s work as “Blakean.” But compare Huxley’s term, “Mind at Large,” to Blake’s Marriage of Heaven and Hell: “Energy is the only life and is from the Body and Reason is the bound or outward circumference of Energy. Energy is Eternal Delight.” Where is mind here, little or large? Huxley and the perennial philosophers posited “Mind at Large” as an understandable reaction against the reductionist equation of consciousness with the brain, combined with a (equally understandable) rejection of religious dogma about the soul. (I don’t necessarily include Strieber here, since as a Catholic, he is “all about” the reality of the soul.) Instead, they posited a mind that is everywhere. By choosing to use the word mind, however, they appeared to equate consciousness with the structure and content of their own minds.
Where, or what, is mind? Is it necessarily a materialistic view to say that it is only a side effect of the body? Animals possess consciousness, and obviously they have brains; but what sort of minds do they have? The mind has very much become interchangeable with the self (and even the psyche, though the latter means “soul”). When we think of who we are, we don’t generally think of our internal organs or the shape of our limbs but of our thoughts and memories. The mind, like the self, is a construction built of associations, beliefs, images, and memories. It seems to be largely dependent upon language to maintain its coherence. (Freud believed it to be the breeding ground of delusions, and most psychological models would agree.) Take away our power to think in words and what does that leave? Madness, or at best, dreams.
But if consciousness doesn’t stem from the brain or the mind, where does it stem from?
Huxley’s Mind at Large is another way of saying the Godhead, the quasi-religious concept that God has a head (or penis), which presumably is where His Mind (and Brain) is located. This phallocentric view brings us to the core of the matter (pun intended): the de-eroticization of spirit. Like Carlos Castaneda’s old seers, the philosophers, both ancient and modern, are as persistent as they are perennial. As the basis for all of their projected perfections of both nature and spirit, there lurks a Norman Bates-like mortification of/entrapment by the feminine. This form of mother-bondage requires a corresponding creation of an idealized father figure—a “Godhead”—in their own infantile image. To possess the mother, they must become their own fathers. To do both, they must create internally generated images—mortifications and idealizations—to relate to.
Where flesh is seen as inherently “sinful” or corrupt, only fantasy will do. Rocket ships pushing through space to reach the Moon; Hadron colliders smashing matter in an unconscious striking back at the mother (mater) who spawned and spurned them; the creation of technology to dominate Nature, liberate “the spirit,” and resurrect “the body” (in digital form); all partake of the same agonizing attempt of the disembodied intellect to feel potent in the absence of a life force. Isn’t the mind’s refusal to live in the body a refusal to be absorbed into the continuity of being of the body? If so, then the mind’s refusal to be absorbed into the body may be one and the same with the rejection of the erotic dimensions of spirit and spirituality.
Since sexuality remains in the form of libido (the body can’t exist without energy), the libido is now possessed not by the body, Eros, but by the mind. As long as the mind experiences itself as separate and isolate from the body—through the fragmentation of trauma, or rather its insistence on keeping trauma secret from itself—it remains under the dominion of Thanatos. And death is the one thing that energy (eternal delight) can never know.
To read full essay, order Prisoner of Infinity: UFOs, Social Engineering, and the Psychology of Fragmentation
always leading back to Kubrick’s moon ! classic.
“Degrade first the arts if you’d mankind degrade, Hire idiots to paint with cold light and hot shade.” – Blake
Great Post Jasun. Your words here “and what I’m learning is how to train my eyes to see in a new way.” made me think of Proust ( didn’t he have a traumatic childhood? I think Alice Miller has dug around a bit into it ) and his famous quote about seeing/having new eyes. I did not want to butcher the quote however and so I looked it up and found this complete reference:
“The source of this citation is ‘La Prisonnière’, the fifth volume of ‘Remembrance of Things Past’ (also known as) ‘In Search of Lost Time’ – perhaps the most celebrated work by Marcel Proust.
To quote more fully from the original citation souce – La Prisonnière:-
A pair of wings, a different respiratory system, which enabled us to travel through space, would in no way help us, for if we visited Mars or Venus while keeping the same senses, they would clothe everything we could see in the same aspect as the things of the Earth. The only true voyage, the only bath in the Fountain of Youth, would be not to visit strange lands but to possess other eyes, to see the universe through the eyes of another, of a hundred others, to see the hundred universes that each of them sees, that each of them is; and this we do, with great artists; with artists like these we do really fly from star to star.” http://www.age-of-the-sage.org/quotations/proust_having_seeing_with_new_eyes.html
and then irony of ironies I stumbled onto this image:
Stress can be emergent for some goals. Magic mushrooms are natures way to present something unique/spiritual. The Smile concept of Dr. Leary is a necessary component for the survival of humanity. Nice brain food here. Dennis
Jasun, are you acquainted with the case of Brazilian arab-descendant Amyr Amiden?
As always it is a displeasure to come here chit chat, considering you’re always two steps ahead of us, the subject is intractable and I may make the mistake of commiting some indiscretion. Well that’s three reasons I can rationalize off-the-bat to describe the emotional horror of commenting here, but I’m sure there are many more reasons not to [comment here].
The above link has an English translation but it isn’t accurate and may be misleading. But in a nutshell, as many readers of that imperialist wretch Hakim Bey would be aware, there has been a long link between Sufis and pederasty, probably going back to Ancient Greece at least.
Now I’m not accusing any of the myriad Sufi orders of anything but hypnotic mind control. It’s just that a male kid manifesting poltergeist phenomena makes you wonder if he wasn’t a victim of early sexual abuse. There’s a strange story about dreary spiritual manifestations triggered by sexual abuse in a book by Lon Milo Duquette. Frankly this shit goes straight back to Eliphas Levi and from there to Ye Olde Black Magic…
And of course urban legend wouldn’t let us forget that such evil modus operandi of sexual abuse, early childhood trauma and hypnosis has been appropriated by the Intelligence Community to create übermensch. Anyway I’m not well acquainted with the case of said Amyr Amiden, can’t vouch for the reliability of linked report and leave you betting that ye olde S.N.I., Brazilian predecessor to present-day A.B.I.N., has certainly looked deeply into this case. Too bad they’re sociopathic liars with an interest in burying truth, but maybe you can get something on this case through your secret channels.
“Emotional horror of commenting”!? Here was I thinking I am a gracious host. Have you seen Jan Irvin’s blog responses?
I am not familiar with this sect at all, thanks for bringing it to my attention.
What sort of secret channels are you imagining for me?
Haven’t seen, will look into. I like WordPress.com too, blogs opened 10 years ago are still open – and hopefully will be for another 20 years. I wonder if they’re profitable at the end of the fiscal year? As for you, you’re more than OK for a Chamaleonic Cassandra. I had no idea you had secret channels, must have been thinking of that other you 🙂
Re Bacha bāzī . Interesting. Presently, at the school my kids’ attend each 9th grade class is asked to read the novel The Kite Runner in English class. Personally, I thought it was a good story. For adults. Not 14 year olds. A few parents besides myself questioned the value of teaching this book given its very graphic and visceral anal rape scene and description of culturally accepted pederasty/pedophilia. Our concerns fell on educrat’s deaf ears. Apparently, getting the message across to adolescents that this abuse is to be expected is a top priority. Wouldn’t want to leave any child behind now would we?
The simplest way to advance the New Age agenda would be to allow research scientists at major universities to ‘validate’ and incorporate the findings of parapsychology, which are in fact now 130-165 years old, not 40, in standard textbooks. The intelligence communities have some influence there, see any of the mainstream conspiracists, if you’ll allow the oxymoron. Similarly, the government could ‘validate’ some aspect of the ‘UFO’ phenomenon, remaining mum on any aspects they choose – a well-practiced technique by now. Popular channelled material is in fact 100 years old; Frederick Myers wrote books from ‘beyond the grave.’ If you take Hesiod at his word it’s 2900 hundred years old; Homer, over 3,000. If you agree with Jaynes it’s much older than (even perhaps human) history. One can only feel a little blase trying to get worked up about Star Wars, a hackneyed fantasy pulp straight from the Joseph Campbell (as the writers admit) manual thrown up on the big screen and located in a strangely anthropocentric galaxy. Human history only shows that there will be competing national claims on resources derived from as well as on any extraterrestrial objects (e.g. the moon) themselves. In short, this ‘new’ religion, which is not only largely continuous with occult traditions originating in dimmest antiquity but was also ‘new’ in the middle of the 18th century is having a hard time gaining traction despite the best poor efforts of a shadowy cabal.
In what way hard time? What I see is a sea of ideologically programmed, internally colonized people thinking we need to get off the planet/mutilate our bodies/return to our alien roots to survive/be happy, with next to no clue of the waters they are swimming in outside of that oxymoronic mainstream conspiratainment. This is probably the main reason I arrange weekly conversations with people who aren’t entirely clueless: to minimize my sense of alienation…?
(Good points otherwise tho.)
I sort of see your point, but even Jung himself promoted the Age of Aquarius as liable to be radically ‘discontinuous’ and getting to that point seems (like it always does in retrospect, admittedly) to have been part of a destiny that originated in the 19th century. (I wrote ’18th’ by accident in the last line above). Jung communicated with people from many walks of life, granted, but largely preceded the SRI/CIA/etc. nexus you’ve outlined here. As for your ‘sea of ideologically programmed, internally colonized people,’ I grant that they may exist, but it’s hard to see the intersection between something like ‘Ancient Aliens’ and the rather nefarious propagandizing efforts you mention. Considering the number of pitched/cancelled television shows, a medium like the History Channel really goes where the masses already are (a largely organic mass psychological movement?). And hell, maybe ancient aliens really are our roots. On the other hand, though, I see much more often a sea of people around me brainwashed by a reductionstic scientism that is whiteknuckle terrified of admitting that it’s actually based on or plain just is a crumbling/crumbled philosophical materialism. That’s the paradigm that’s unquestionably dominant in the professional press & allied establishments. (I’ll also admit this rift occupies a fair amount of my non-directed thought and I’m none the wiser about it.)
Jung seems to have had a major blind spot around this, in his touting as America as an exemplary of genuine freedom & innovation, which may have been behind his horrendous naivete in associating with Allan Dulles (either that or he was more aware than he let on & following covert agendas, of one sort or another). Obviously we all have major blind spots & hindsight is 20/20, etc. As for whether Ancient Aliens type narratives are shaping mass belief or vice versa, that seems like a chicken or egg question since as you point out the narratives have been seeded millennia ago. The main thrust of this blog, currently, is that these are all guiding fictions that exploit and hence perpetuate the fragmentation of the psyche/loss of wholeness or ground, and for me the evidence is not merely in widespread beliefs about aliens or the necessity of space travel but, far more prevalent, in the “dominant paradigm” which, while it may be materialist in some sense, is also scientistic, i.e, informed by the same sort of religious zealotry and blind, irrational belief as its supposed counterpart. I see a continuum through all of this, from perennial philosophies to theosophy to ascended masters to ancient aliens to starseed transmissions to the secret to psychism and human potential to entheogens to burning man to silicon valley to transhumanism to transgender rights to systematized sexual abuse of children to MK-ULTRA-type intell. programs & staged alien abductions to space travel to stars wars to the force to perennial philosophies, round & round the merry go round we go, where we stop, no one knows. So for me it is very much all of a piece, and that’s sort of the personal discovery that POI maps…
From 2002 Guardian piece:
So you are saying Synthesis of the Psyche is an intensely personal journey , and beware of anyone offering collective psyche synthesis services , myths or memes ….? I like you , Krishnamurti Horsley , for truth is indeed a trackless swamp, and this blog itself is neti neti , with some lovely bohemians hanging around , many of whom i suspect with a strong materialist/ reductionist bent
The moon landings were faked not just because it is impossible to leave this planet bodily, and not just to distract Americans from the horrors of what they were doing to Vietnam and to their own children there, and not just to proclaim American dominance, but mostly to cement the ascendancy of scientism at the top of the soon to be global cultural junkheap. The linchpin in the new paradigm begun in perfidious Albion with the Bacon Royal Society Freemason knowledge is power New Atlantis crowd. The fake landing created true believers. And the gift it keeps on giving has mostly now to do with aliens.
Try telling someone the moon landings were faked! Have fun! You will be insulting their religion.
The Red Hot Chilli Peppers plainly stated the Moon Landings were fake , and it did their popularity no harm ?
I agree we physically cant leave this planet
( unless you want to come back a frozen amorphous blob shoehorned in a dustbin)
No that was the bass player for rage against the machine and he was ripped to shreds by some leftie site like buzz feed. Really really mocked. You will be thought of as either a moron or mentally ill. When of course with the most basic understanding of science and common sense it is obvious it never happened. Same with Darwinism. Same with the falsity of vaccination (trauma) and GMO agriculture. And now common core. The lies of science. While the core of science itself is threatened with the decline effect, where experiments can’t be replicated. It clearly has become a religion. It’s all based on faith anyway as Feyerabend pointed out. “How science became a religion” would make a good book. “The cia is more spiritual than you” another. “The myth of progress: freemasonry, the clash of civilizations and science”. a third. For when I retire.
It is interesting that the responses here have veered into discussion of that program named for the bardic god and his solar cult borrowed from Hyperion and/or Helios, which was in fact targeted, we are told, at the celestial aspect of Selene/Artemis/Hecate. Dave McGowan, in his thought-provoking ‘Wagging the Moondoggie’ did not insult this commenter’s religion, whatever the phrase means, though the latter wonders if s/he is not one of those ‘lovely bohemians’ mentioned by the enlightened sleepwalker above whose ‘religion’ has a scientific/reductionist bent. In that case, the anticipated religious crisis did not occur, but the commenter wonders if Mr. Hursley has read it and has his own thoughts on how it might relate to POI. Also eagerly awaiting Ginko’s “The CIA Is More Spiritual Than You.”
I found the new url for Edgar Mitchell’s FREE site, via Mike Clelland’s blog: http://experiencer.org/
Jasun, I enjoyed your exploration on the space between space and body. I’m laughing, a little, because of the timing of my reading this. I’m currently reading something called the Yoga Vasishta (http://yogavasishta.org/). It is a Vedic text on, basically, coming to spiritual/physical liberation by discovering the truth that doesn’t move that lies beneath the ephemera of life.
I’m currently reading book IV, which is why I’m laughing at the timing of this: Ch 20: The Mind Is the Person, not the Body. Ch 21 Philosophy of the Mind Creating Its Own Reality; Different Schools of Thought.
The preceding chapter also has its links to your article: Ch 19: Differences between Waking & Dreaming States
I’ll cite all of Ch 20, as it is very short, and comments, in a way, on this exploration. (Maybe you’ll find it amusing, too.)
“Vasishta said:— Now Rama, I have told you all this in order to explain the nature of the mind to you, and for no other reason. Whatever the mind often thinks upon with a strong conviction of its reality, it immediately assumes that form, like an iron ball igniting from contact with fire. Therefore the convictions of being or not being and of receiving or rejecting a thing depend upon the imagination of the mind. They are neither true nor untrue but merely fluctuations of the mind.
“The mind is the cause of error, and it is the mind which is the framer of the world. The mind also stretches itself in the form of the universe (vishwarupa) in its gross state. The mind is called the person (purusha, person, i.e., the ruler of the body) which, being brought under control and directed in the right course, produces all prosperity. If the body were the person, how could the high-minded Shukra pass into various forms in his very many transmigrations? Therefore the mind (chitta) is the ruler of the body (purusha) which is rendered conscious (chetya) by it. Whatever form the mind assumes to itself, it undoubtedly becomes the same.
“So inquire into what is great, devoid of attributes and error, and which is easily attainable by everybody. Be diligent in your inquiry and you will surely succeed to obtain it.
“Hence whatever is seated in the mind, the same comes to pass on the body. But what is done by the body never affects the mind. Therefore, O fortunate Rama, apply your mind to truth and shun whatever is untrue.”
I enjoyed how your article shows that the revolutions that are going to ‘save us’ are all based in a thinking space that denigrates the validity of bodily experience beyond the mechanism that can be and is used to traumatize the individual to live ‘outside’ of his/her body.
Thanks; he talks about what the mind creates, but how about the question of what creates the mind?
He talks about that, too, in earlier chapters. To paraphrase, it comes down to there being in existence something that creates everything. And as to why there is anything to begin with is left open and unanswerable. It is. Why? Only some version of God may know, and whatever that is is keeping that as an inside joke.
So no mention of trauma?
No. No mention of trauma in any way, although I’ve not read the entire text — it is long and SO repetitive. I suspect that the roots of this philosophy would ‘naturally’ include trauma as part of ‘maya’, the delusion that what we perceive in the physical world is the ‘real’ stuff when the ‘real’ world, including birth and all subsequent traumas, are in ‘reality’ a dream manufactured by the ego/mind not aware of its true existence as part of the indivisible/insoluble One that is All. So, not helpful from that perspective.
On the other hand, Vasishta frequently avers the necessity for the individual to be open and willing to seek the nature of his/her own nature. To be, in fact, absolutely single-minded in that quest. And if that intention is strong enough and carried through, then all delusion, including that of the effects of trauma, will eventually dissipate like mist with the rising of the sun. Some argument could be made that the traumatized people, who haven’t been actually destroyed, are those with the greatest motivation to find that out. That is, after having managed to survive and escape from the clutches of the various compensatory addictive behaviours that trauma makes manifest. Counselling, therapy, AA stuff, body work stuff, or whatever is the start of that quest for many. In a sense, many of us who survived early and childhood trauma and the associated addictive behaviours in their many guises, become the strongest seekers of the ‘true’ nature of Life and the human existence in the world.