I feel the hum of many questions burning, both out there and in here. It’s a good feeling.
To answer my question to Abe (see last post, “Becoming Kubrick”), there is something that looks a lot like obsession but isn’t. It is the burning, unbridled engagement of every cell of one’s being with the contents of perception. It doesn’t matter what the subject is, as long as it engages all of the senses and all of the faculties and focuses them into a single point – a burning eye of a needle that swallows every last camel without blinking.
The experience, I can only imagine, is that of a baby locking onto the world with all its senses and just sucking it up.
It is to be what we are and can never not be: pure perception.
I want to say two things today: one is to ask for your patience with this “grand unveiling,” because for me it feels almost, very much, like unveiling my very own Soul.
The other thing is not so easy to express, but last night I was failing once again to sleep while all my atoms were vibrating with the soft intensity of awakening, and I felt a sudden, quite unfamiliar feeling of immense gratitude to everyone who has stuck with me in reading this blog (never mind commenting on it, which is off the chart). It hit me as so improbable, and as an incredible generosity of spirit, for all of you to take the time to read and respond and be interested in what, at the end of the day, might just be one guy working off excess brain activity.
I know it must mean you are entertained (though of course I hope there’s something more in it for you than passing time). But even so, I am …. Touched to my core by this . . . show of sentience.
Light recognizes itself only when it first sees its shine.