No Such Thing As Coincidence?
While I was lying awake this morning, pre-dawn, I was thinking about doing a new series of daily posts that would describe the process of promoting my new book, Seen & Not Seen, leading up to its publication date, January 31st, 2015.
I did a quick calculation and found out that the book’s release comes exactly one hundred days after the 100-day “What is Embodiment” series ended (counting post # 0, not counting the appendix).
How about that. Since I don’t believe in coincidences, what does this mean to me?
The Shadow of the Groundhog
A week or so ago I consulted Lyn Birkbeck’s Astrological Oracle with a question about how I might best approach promoting the new book as a form of my soul’s expression.
I drew the Sabian symbol for 15 degrees of Sagittarius: “A Groundhog Looking for its Shadow.” It relates to the popular folklore that, when spring is coming, the groundhog emerges from hibernation. If it sees its shadow it decides it’s too soon and withdraws into its hole. (Another coincidence: Groundhog day is February 2nd, two days after the books release.)
Leaving out why a visible shadow would indicate that spring had not yet arrived rather than the reverse (who knows what lurks in the mind of a groundhog?), I found the symbolism to be quite apropos. The Oracle then talks about how prediction is always a projection of one’s past onto the future.
Specifically, the symbolism seemed to point to how much trouble I have putting myself into the world. My pattern of extending myself in quite majorly public ways, hoping for a warm reception, then withdrawing in disappointment when I don’t get one—that is, when I “see” (or look for) my “shadow.”
My Desire to Be Established
Why would I even want to be established? Doesn’t being established mean becoming part of the establishment?
And what, if any, is the relation between embodiment and establishment?
(Groundhog symbolizes the most material part of me—i.e., my body.)
The World is a (Shadow) Mirror
Before I consulted the Oracle, I had spoken to my wife about how my own projections invariably interfere with my attempts to bring myself to the world (come out of my hole), such as when I get triggered by an unfavorable response, or worse, by no response at all. I’d decided—for the umpteenth time—that this was the real “gold” of the process, and that promoting my work was secondary to that, even incidental.
Seeing how the world receives me—or doesn’t—and more importantly, how I react (or don’t) to the world’s response (or lack of one), is an essential part of the individuation process. It’s necessary because it helps me identify the parts of my psyche that are in a codependent relationship to the collective (world), that compulsively fabricate false meanings, and pile them like sandbags against the irresistible onslaught of infinity (death).
Those are the parts I have an opportunity to recognize and let go of, while ostensibly promoting The Book.
Failure is Success
The benefit of failure is that it provides the opportunity to test my commitment to “the work.” The longer I don’t receive the many rewards of worldly validation, recognition, influence, wealth, etc., and yet still continue to dedicate myself to creative expression, the more sure I can be of doing the right thing—creating because I must, because it is the voice of my Soul, and not because it inflates my ego or my bank balance (that’ll be the day).
Does That Mean Success = Failure?
The problem with this viewpoint is that it gives rise to its opposite number, which is that my creative integrity will somehow be compromised—cheapened—by success (or even “success”)
At an even more problematic level (and here I start to intersect with the more general subject matter of Seen & Not Seen), since I believe the world is organized in such a way that only those who have proved themselves both useful to the controlling elite (plutocracy for short) and manageable by them—who have shown their allegiance to the established way of doing things (in other words, are corruptible)—are ever allowed to succeed, since I believe this, that means any kind of substantial success, for me, pretty much guarantees cognitive dissonance.
Either I will have to reevaluate my beliefs or I will undergo identity crisis.
But reevaluation of belief is identity crisis.
So for me, success = identity crisis.
Bring it on.
If you would like to help this groundhog to see past his shadow and be ready for the Spring—not to continue repeating the same day over and over—you can help me promote the book/myself by liking it on Facebook, following me on Twitter and retweeting my tweets, commenting at this blog, telling your friends via whatever social media you use (and even old flesh and blood-style), and of course, pre-ordering the book (later).