When writing psycho-history, the meanings don’t make themselves available like ordinary facts and figures. They have to be teased out and then they need to be apprehended, not only with the intellect and the intuition, but with the total body.
We’ve already seen how Strieber’s memories of being abused as a child center around being confined in a box for extended periods of time, and how that led to visions of angels and demons. Was such confinement part of a successful attempt to force children to dissociate and develop an ability to leave the body? (It may even have been connected to an early remote viewing program.)
I knew from my own research how, when a child is sexually abused, there is often a sexual response, not merely despite but to some degree because of the terror and the violence being inflicted. One way for the child to reduce its distress and to survive psychologically is to identify with the abuser. This means the child, to some degree, experiences the abuser’s sexuality as its own. This is how the trauma becomes internalized, and why the act of dissociation, as Kalsched describes, is an aggressive one. It is equivalent to a kind of involuntary self-violation on the part of the psyche. A splitting of awareness allows the developing ego to escape the scene of the trauma and make itself safe from any future incidents. As Kalsched writes:
In effect, the diabolical figure traumatizes the inner object world in order to prevent re-traumatization in the outer one. . . . The full pathological effect of trauma requires an outer event and a psychological factor. Outer trauma alone doesn’t split the psyche. An inner psychological agency—occasioned by the trauma—does the splitting.
The conscious self then becomes de-eroticized, though not devoid of sexual response (the person may even develop a sexual pathology). The libido remains trapped inside the body by, and to some degree as (inseparable from), suppressed traumatic memory. The child dissociates. Its consciousness leaves the body and enters into (or creates) an alternate, anti-libidinal identity, a “mind-self” that is forever safe from re-experiencing that trauma, but also forever cut off from its own life force and body.
June 5th, Crucial Fictions matter
PDF, “Martian Dreams.”
MP3s: “Sisters of Mercy” and “Straw Men (Strieber’s ‘Intelligence’ Connections’”)
Original Artwork at “Martin Dreams Gallery.”